Wow, have I lost my groove, or what?
Maybe changing my schedule around on the heels of a marathon headache was not such a good idea.
I ended up falling asleep on the couch after dinner.
I have decided not to worry one whit about not being productive. I'm not. It is what it is.
I am doing the best that I can.
The ENT's office told me to call every afternoon, to check for cancellations the next day. Guess they forgot to tell me that they were closed on Monday.
That's a fine kettle of fish.
Still, I am grateful. I know that there are so many people, younger than I, with far worse situations to deal with.
We never know what tomorrow brings us. We just try to meet it with as much grace and humor as possible.
I remember right about the time I started this blog, I had a knee replacement. It was March, 2007. I had a tough time. The pain was something I don't ever want to revisit. Pain meds were useless. I didn't sleep, I couldn't eat. My knee looked like a misshapen cantaloupe for months. Then a manipulation, to bend it. Then for good measure, I had my gallbladder removed just 3 months later. It was a dark time, and I felt cheated. What was my body doing to me?? After all, wasn't this new knee supposed to be an improvement??
Well, let's just say that it is not a success story every time. I had a couple 'second opinions', and the general consensus was, even a year later, they didn't know what happened, and that this was my knee. Get used to it.
Now, four years later, my knee is still not pretty. It is always swollen. I will always want my old, rickety knee back. I will always be aware of the 'alien' part in my leg.
But I can walk, yes, I can.
Since June, I have walked about 20 miles every week. Sure, my knee aches in the night, but it's worth it. Walking with my boy Roy along the river........??? You bet it's worth it.
So, ultimately, and always, no matter what, gratitude is the attitude.
Sydney agrees. She told me.