Whew. One done, one to go.
I really DO like it, though. Even while it is a pain to weave, very slow, and it demands my total concentration.
I put a long warp on the loom, so I will be making some smaller rugs in this pattern, to put on my web site.
Forgiveness is on my mind today. Anger and resentment have ruled my thoughts, for several months now. It is time to let it go. Past time. I have lots of thoughts rumbling around my head.
Here are some quotes I found about it, that spoke to my heart.
The Buddha said, "Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."
"It is natural for the immature to harm others. Getting angry with them is like resenting a fire for burning."
"One could say that there are three ways to get rid of anger: kill the opponent, kill yourself, or kill the anger--which one makes most sense to you?"
"Sincere forgiveness isn't colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don't worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time."
"When a deep injury is done us, we never recover until we forgive."
"The stupid neither forgive nor forget, the naive forgive and forget, the wise forgive but do not forget."
"There is no revenge as complete as forgiveness."
"Forgiveness is not always easy. At times, it feels more painful than the wound we suffered, to forgive the one that inflicted it. And yet, there is no peace without forgiveness."
"Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could be any different."
I walked along the river last night, with Eddie, and I felt my anger leaving me. I can't explain it, maybe I was just ready. But I suddenly felt lighter.
I feel free.
Have you ever wrestled with forgiveness? Is it as hard as it was for me?
I always used to joke that I needed every bit of pain my ex husband could dish out, to get me to where I am today.
I didn't think I needed more pain. But I guess I'm still learning.