Crazy as a Loom

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Moving on to March

I spent a quiet few hours at the studio, threading my 8 harness Baby Wolf for point twill dish towels.
It was  guaranteed to require lots of heat to my neck when I was finished. But I knew that.
And it's done, and I am ready to weave more dish towels on it.

I love when February is over.  The anticipation of spring is palpable.  March can be as crappy as it wants to be, but we know that the ground is warming up, the days are getting longer, the birds are singing different songs, and SOON, very soon, being outside will be such joy.

I don't know about you, but I always get antsy in the spring.  This is the time of year I want to move the furniture, tear down a wall or two, add something on somewhere , in general change things up.
I'm not sure if you could call it spring fever, but somehow the time is ripe with possibilities.

Over the winter, I have done a lot of thinking about this year, wanting it to be so much better than last year.  If my head cooperates, I plan on doing some hiking, and a whole lot of kayaking.  I can barely wait.   I have a list of ponds that are calling out to me, and many evenings find me poring over google maps of the Adirondacks.
I am not going to work SEVEN days a week all through the most wonderful weather.  Nor am I going to work SIX.
I am going to really concentrate on putting value and substance into my "days off"..............and I am really going to take those days OFF, and not just talk about them.

I don't know how long this life is for.  We never do.  It's a game of cards, and you just don't ever really know what hand will be dealt to you next.
I found that out the hard way.

I have many times gone over that day hiking with my daughter and two of my grands.  August 11, 2011.
It was a beautiful day, and we hiked for a long time.  When we got down to the lake, I took that fateful last photo, of my grandson in the water.  Then I took my camera off, and set it down, and put my right foot (with Teva on) into the water.
It was over in a nano second.  I don't remember flying through the air, I only remember the pain in my head when I hit, and the sudden realization that this was not good, in fact, this was REALLY bad.
And right then, my life changed direction, forever.
I'm not complaining.  It is what it is.   I could have died from the impact.  I didn't.   I'm here.
I am just making commentary on how quickly, how unexpectedly, and how profoundly, your life can change at any given moment.
We are always hearing advice about living in the now.  Some of us will.   Some of us won't.
And regardless of what we do, time will go racing ahead anyway.

Personally, I am trying to pay attention.
Every.  Day.

 There is no way to tell when the next "nano second" will occur.

And for all of you who have worried about my continuing headache, I got an answer from the doctor.
It's MRI time.
I can't tell you how much I dread getting another MRI.  But I will do it, just to know.


Hilary said...

You're so right.. it happens whether we live in and enjoy the moment or not.

When is the MRI? We will all, no doubt hold your (virtual) hand through it.

I've noticed the change in songs recently, also.

Cait Throop said...

I love the spring! Even March because you just can feel the difference! Yes...a nano second and everything can change...a couple of words and everything can change...I'm so glad you are taking some days off every week! And an MRI. Well, there might be some good answers there. We can always hope.

Anonymous said...

Keeping our fingers crossed.
Your Greek friend, Dimitria.

Lydia La La said...

You have an amazing attitude to life and I wish you all the best for your MRI and the future. Some people aren't fortunate enough to get a second chance as you say but how can we really appreciate what we have? It takes a huge scare to do that.

I have missed certain death by only inches twice so I do try to be thankful and live life on the edge a little more. I do wish I was single and didn't have to concern myself with his wishes. Take care and looking forward to those dish towels. XO

Karen said...

So well said, from someone who has the experiences to fully understand.

Wishing you the best possible MRI results....

and.. wishing you would stay away from the looms for a while to give that neck/shoulders/back area a rest. I know, slap me now.

MarthaVA said...

Hilary, I'm so proud of you for contacting the doctor, and although the inevitable is the MRI, let's face it, it's gotta be done. ((HUGS)) We are here with and for you! You're going to be fine - and if you need something to take the edge off of you having the MRI, don't be afraid to speak up and say so and don't feel like a wimp (being the nurse you are, you probably feel it's the wimpy way out). Being strong also means knowing WHEN to ask for help!

Taking life one day at a time, not predicting or over-planning the future (because you know what they say about having a plan for life) and knowing that you have today, and that's what's important, is a special gift. Only those of us that have been through something that teaches us how short life really is, can understand that.

We're here for you! Hang in there.

moosecraft said...

True words of wisdom! I keep telling people that all the time... "you never know how much longer you have so make every day count"... but, some folks i think just love to complain... and that's what keeps them going... soooo, i go the other direction... lol!

Best of everything with the MRI.

messymimi said...

My prayers go with you.

ladyoftheloom said...

I think about knitting in the MRI tube. I close my eyes and knit in my head.

Kathy said...

I close my eyes, relax, and zone out...go into 'another place'. For me, that is to Maine or Vermont, the Adirondaks or Canada. Hiking, fishing, canoeing, anywhere, doing anything but the MRI. Same as when I got a root canal that took about 90 minutes. Zoned out...yeah, it wasn't perfect, but before I knew it, It was over.... I wish you well. Thank you for all your encouragement, insightful entries, and often, saying what I want to but can't...Thank you!

Shuttle, Hook and Needle said...

Hilary, I am glad you are getting the MRI to find out why the continuing headaches.
I have had some of those nano seconds where the axis my life was on, suddenly shifted and turned me in a new direction. I can't say I have taken each new direction gracefully but it has taught me to appreciate each and every day for what it is.
I love spring but I want to stay in my winter hibernation just a little while longer. Warm weather forces me out into the world and I just don't want to be a part of it just yet.
Take care and let us know how the MRI goes. God Bless

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