Change

I am in a strange mood today.......maybe tired, maybe distracted, maybe both.

I think there is change in the air, more change.
Sometimes, I am not good with change.
You know?  Your life may have its rough spots, but you get used to it, and comfortable, and not inclined to move away from that place where everything is familiar.
Then life comes along, and quite often, you aren't offered an alternative.
Change.
Why do we resist?

We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves.

Lynn Hall, Where Have All the Tigers Gone?, 1989

So today, I found myself  walking around the studio, taking some inventory.

The Toika is waiting for L and I to finish the third big piece of a HUGE rug.

 

Union Custom #1 is threaded for 3'x5' Walking on Sunshine Rugs, but they are not a priority right now.

The Union Special is threaded with denim blue, for blue jean rugs, again, not a priority at present.

The Reed Ideal has over 500 yards of black warp, specifically for 2'x3' and 2'x4' walking on Sunshine Rugs, and L weaves them whenever she has time.

The Cranbrook, that I have finally become very fond of, still has a lot of dark brown warp on it, I work on it whenever I can.  I am really loving this loom, so funny, since I was determined to get rid of it for years.

 The Union 36 is threaded for table runners, because my stock of them is very low.

The Hammett is the loom I am using to make the Log Cabin placemats on, I started another set today.

Union custom #2 is threaded in off white, we just finished a 12' runner on it.

The wolf pup is empty, and waiting for me to put a mug mat warp on it.

As I wandered around the studio, looking at what I have planned to do, what I need to do, and what I want to do, I felt somewhat overwhelmed.  I didn't even go upstairs, where four more looms are threaded, and waiting for me.
Did I mention the loom in my own living room???
How many is that????  I  think I lost one.
 I perused the containers of blue jeans to be cut and sewn.  The bins of socks to be cut and sewn.  The loom kits that need to be made up.
The loopers that need to be sorted.

This is your time and it feels normal to you, but really, there is no normal. There's only change and resistance to it and then more change.

Meryl Streep (1949 - ), Barnard Commencement Speech, 2010

I'm not sure where all this is going in my head, I just feel that I need to change some things, and I'm not sure what.  Time to  re-evaluate.

Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking but a full-on metamorphosis.

Martha Beck, O Magazine, Growing Wings, January 2004

Roy says:  Whatever it is, Mommy, it will be OK.