In all my 30 years of nursing, if anyone had ever told me that they had endured a headache almost daily for 8 years, I would have probably rolled my eyes.
I imagine that I would have immediately thought: nutcase, drug seeker, drama queen, liar.
Who has a headache for that long? Seriously.
So I guess that means that I was a lousy nurse (damn, I didn't think I was) OR a judgemental witch. Didn't think I was that, either.
Or certainly a clueless, uninformed nitwit.
Because it is true, it happens. I am the bearer of that good news.
Anyway, as my loyal followers know, it has been a roller coaster ride, and in recent years, it has truly been better......easier.......or I have just gotten used to it.
But sometimes, like on Saturday, I get the migraine super-imposed over the existing dull headache that I sometimes forget I have, unless someone asks. (please don't ask)
And in this instance, it has hung on. Google search says that a migraine can last for 72 hours......so about 3pm this afternoon should wrap it up. Thank you very much.
Maybe the vice will come off my temples. Maybe I can stop thinking about it. Maybe I can breathe, and stop forcing myself through the day.
Over these last 8 years, the one thing that has sustained me is "staying in the day".....I know that there is not much that you can't get through for one day. And so often, I ask myself....."can you do today?"
Always the answer comes back, "Hell, yes."
And so I go on.
February has worn me down a bit, I must say....the cold, the snow, the ice, not enough sun, no place to walk. Then the headache as frosting on that crappy cake.
Ok, I've vented. Thanks for listening........onward and upward.
I can do today.
Oh, yes, I can.