Crazy as a Loom

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Merry, merry

The house is strangely empty.   I turn and look for Roy a couple times every day.  It's like my brain just doesn't want to believe that he's really gone.

The cats seem a little confused.   Maybe he was their dog, too.

The outpouring of sympathy and love from all of you touched me deeply.   Roy was truly loved, even by all of you who only knew him here.

I am getting better every day, that was one foul flu/cold sickness.  I am still tired, and every afternoon, I want to take a nap.  That is so unlike me, but I figure that my body is telling me stuff I should pay attention to.

My Christmas spirit has not arrived, and I fear that it's really too late now.   I have done the minimal amount of shopping that I could get away with, and I have not baked one cookie, or decorated even one thing.

I decided to just accept that it is that way for me this year.   Some things you just can't change.

DH has been perusing, trying to fill the void here.   I am not ready.   I want Roy, and I know that I can't have him.   Another dog will come along, I know that, but just not right yet.

Wishing you all a lovely Christmas.  Thanks for being here when I so needed kind words.  You're the best!!!!


Unknown said...

Hilary, I was just checking in to see how you were doing with the flu and saw the news about Roy. I remember when he became part of your family! I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Take the rest you need to heal both in body and spirit. Nancy

claudia said...

I am truly so sorry for your loss of Roy. He was a special boy, I just know that from the loving words you always shared with us about him. I know the heartbreak you are feeling, as I lost two of my furbabies this year and still after seven months expect them to be greeting me when I come home.

I am just getting over the "crud". Can't call it flu, but I am guessing I will have to seek my doctor's advice come Tuesday as this thing will not leave permanently. I thought I was rid of it twice and now I am feeling it come back again!

I hope you will get to spend time with your grands this Christmas! All of them can bring a smile to your face and warm your heart!

Here's to a happier New Year, and as Merry a Christmas as possible!

DJan said...

I too am feeling the sadness left by the huge hole in the universe that he inhabited. My tears join many many others in the blogosphere, feeling his loss. Wishing you the very best Christmas possible under the circumstances.

Anonymous said...

I wish you a quiet and tranquil Christmas full of wonderful memories. Roy Boy is missed by many and is remembered as a dog for all seasons. Be well my friend.

Angela Tucker said...

Good morning, Hilary. Sometimes, we just need to be sad. My husband pushed for a new dog right after I lost my George. It took a while and I still feel like I gave in too soon. I have two now, but there is a special place in my heart that will always belong to George.

Please get some rest and take care of yourself.

Carol said...

I wish you peace and comfort today amid the sadness and not feeling well. When my beagle girl, Maggie died in July I was so sad I could not even imagine feeling ready for a dog. My thoughts and words to those who told me to start to look were if I am supposed to have another dog, the right one for me will show up somehow and find me. Hillary, that is exactly what happened. A family needed to re-home their eight year old female beagle, and through word of mouth and fate, Bitty came to live with me three weeks ago, and I am so grateful. She is perfectly mine, all I needed in a dog and hopefully all she needs in her person. I still have love to give and needed to give it, having lost my husband four years ago, Maggie was my comforter, but now, I needed to hear something breathing other than me. My Maggie will always be my heart, as Ray will be yours and now my Bitty is soothing that heart. Rest and get well, Hillary. That dog will find you, in time. Have a blessed and peaceful day and continue those naps!

Carol said...

Of course that should have read Roy in my comment.

Christine said...

Sending love and comfort to you during this holiday season. I hope you take much comfort in knowing you were a wonderful mama to Roy and to the rest of your furry family.

Rest often and drink herb tea! This years' cooties are awful.

Much love to you.

Unknown said...

Feeling sad about Roy but memories are of him is always make you feel smile.

Daryl said...

you are the best .. you've opened your heart and home to many cats (and dogs) in need of love and care .. you need to listen to your body and rest ... and while DH is well intentioned, you will know when its time to adopt again ...

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