Tuesday, June 28, 2022

Goodbye.




This post seems unreal to me, I'm not sure how much I have to give to it.

So I'll be brief.

A few days ago, I lost my best friend.

Even though he had been sick for a long while, and declining in health, it was a
shock.
It was unexpected. 
An unattended death, they called it.






My head has been spinning since.   Trying to absorb it, trying to accept it.



I'll be ok, because that's how I roll,   He wouldn't want it any other way.

I hope that he is no longer feeling weak, and tired, and sick.

I pray that he is free of all of that, and if he is, then I'm willing to put up with this ache, 
until we meet again.





42 comments:

messymimi said...

My heart aches for you. May he rest in peace.

Den said...

Hilary, I am so very sorry for your loss. I virtually wrap my arms around you. Be good to yourself. We love you and love reading your posts. You are so real. Thank you. Hugs.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. I love reading your blog and appreciate your virtual friendship. Please accept my condolences over the interwebs. May you find peace, and may his memory be a blessing to you.

mudmaven said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that he has found peace and that you may find peace as well. May I express my most sincere condolences.

coffeeontheporchwithme said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Take care and take time. -Jenn

Helen M said...

I've enjoyed following your blog for about three years and have worried for your health for the last few months. However, I have also felt your strength through your posts. I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband and best friend. I hope you are comforted by memories of him. Sending virtual hugs for you in your grief. Be gentle with yourself.

Gardener said...

I don’t know you but I know of your wisdom, your personal strength, your courage in life, that you have a beautiful family and that you are a sublime weaver. I hope all of these things help you to work your way thru this loss for which there are no other words. I will be thinking of you. Jennifer.

Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss! Peace to you on the road ahead. Olivia, a quiet reader.

Peg Cherre said...

My tears are falling for you. I am so sorry you have to endure this. Virtual hugs with a nice cuppa any time, day or night.

Charlene said...

I am so sorry for your loss, 3 months ago today I lost my husband. It has been harder than I could imagine. Be gentle with yourself.

I have read of your resilience over the years with your health issues and the loss of your mother.

I wish you peace and ease finding your new life without him.-pppppppppppppp

Wanda McColl said...

Dear Hilary,
I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending prayers and hugs.

Judi said...

So very sorry for your loss. Sending virtual hugs!

Caroline in NH said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My Mom died on June 19th and while I knew it would happen I was nowhere ready for it.I hope the memories you have of your life together will help you in the days ahead.

Anonymous said...

So very sorry for your loss. I can see the love in your photos. Sending a cyber hug and deep condolences from Greenwich NY

Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss. Jan

Denise Kovnat said...

Losing our best friend is so much to bear, because we loved them so much. What was that line in the show "Wandavision"? "Grief is love persevering." I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. May you find all the strength and comfort you need in the love of your family and friends. The greater the love, the greater the grief.

Deb said...

Oh Hilary, I'm so sorry to hear this. My deepest condolences to you, the girls and the grands. You will all miss him and your love for each other will hopefully bring you comfort. Sending you a hug, Deb

Cindie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, your family's loss. My heart aches for you. Big hugs.

Anonymous said...

Oh Hilary,such sad news!Sending you a big hug all the way from Greece. Dimitria.

Janice Zindel said...

Hilary, again, I am so sorry to hear of your loss, so difficult to lose someone we love so much. You and family will be comfort for each other, and share the good times and memories with each other. I lost Phil going on 18 years ago, and at times it feels like yesterday. You are a strong woman, be kind to yourself. Keeping all of you in my thoughts, and sending warm hugs.

Daryl said...

i am still reeling over my husband's passing almost 8 months ago .. i think we never get over losing someone we loved, tho i expect (someday) to learn to live with that loss .. hugs to you

A Brit in Tennessee said...

My sincere heartfelt condolences dear friend.
Your photographs speak volumes of a life well-lived and loved.
Rest in Peace dear Bill.
Jo

deodar said...

I lost mine 4-1/2 yrs ago and there's not a day that I don't miss him. It is surely the most awful thing I ever experienced. While it never really gets better, it does get easier, strength.

Joanne Noragon said...

I am so sorry, but so pleased I was able to meet Bill.

Nancy Paulson, Olympia WA said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Kathy Boyd said...

Hilary - I am so very sorry for your loss. May your strength lead you through this difficult and sad time. Wishing you brighter days ahead.
Love & Hugs,
Kathy

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Marcia

Susan said...

I am so very sorry. I wish you peace and comfort.

Simone said...

I am so sorry. May you find peace, and may his memory be a blessing to you.

thecrazysheeplady said...

{{{hug}}}

Old loom weaver said...

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend. Sending hugs and love to you during this hard time.

Restless Knitter said...

Oh Hilary, I am so sorry for your loss.

joyceetta said...

Hilary, I am so sorry to read this. Lots of love coming your way.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry ❤🫂

Just Another Vagabond King said...

I'm so very, very sorry for your unimaginable grief and loss. I wish I had the words to ease in some way but those words are lost on me. Time is a fickle tyrant, that I know, and a bastard at that. I don't pray but I will talk to the night sky as I've done my entire life and hope that whatever is up there, beyond the clouds and the wonder, listens intently to my whispers this one time.

You are, as you have been for a long season, in my heart. With Love.

Your Pal,
Michael

Teresa said...

My most sincere condolences. I can't even imagine how you are feeling. Take care of you. Hugs from Kansas.

tahoegirl.blog said...

I'm so sorry to read this. He sounds like a good person and i know you will miss him and all the little things that made him special. Take care and sending positive thoughts to you this day.

farmer's wife weaving said...

Oh my, I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. Please know that I am thinking of you and sending you many warm and healing thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I’m so sorry.

Jackie M said...

What an awful loss. I am very sorry.
Jackie M

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