You are NOT going to believe this. I know it sounds totally OUTRAGEOUS, but it's true......it is SNOWING.
I knew it was coming. I didn't even have to listen to the weather. I could just watch the frenzy at the bird feeders to know that we were going to get WHACKED again.
And here it comes.
I'm telling ya', he is.
I left the studio a bit early today. I just wanted to settle in for the night. I was cold, tired of being cold, and knew the roads would just get worse as the day progressed.
For five years I have worked HARD at Crazy as a Loom. I wanted to be successful. I wanted to be taken seriously, and I wanted to make money. I wanted it to be a sound business venture.
Here we are......year over........deed done.
Got all that I wanted, and more.
And now, I am wondering...........why?
I have worked 6-7 (mostly 7) days a week, for the last 5 years. Yes, CAAL is a success........a resounding success.
But I find myself asking.......is that it? Is that what you really wanted? Is this what you are going to continue to do, for the sake of success? And I might add, success in the eyes of the world, maybe not so much in your own estimation.
So what now?
I printed off the list of what I sold to be successful in 2010. So tonight, I am going over that list, to see what it says to me.
I may have made X number of dollars making an ABC rug.........but maybe I don't LIKE ABC rugs.
I know what I made doing custom orders..........50 of them, to be exact.
But they were NOT always enjoyable, in fact, some of them were downright painful. It is difficult making things that you do not like.
And while there are customers who are wicked easy to work with, there are also those who are definitely not.
So I am looking at the list, to see what I would like to eliminate from it. And what I would like to stay.
It's up to me to decide what works, what doesn't. And if it isn't money/sales that I am after, then what is it?
The big question: do I want to be a production weaver? And if not, then what?
We have too many choices, it seems. Too much opportunity. Life can be made very complicated, and I am not at all sure that I want that. I think I want SIMPLE. How do I simplify what I have created my self????
It's so easy being a cat, isn't it? A house cat, that is. Finding a sunny spot to lie in, food always available, and grass grown just for me. Toys to play with, looking gorgeous without trying.
Ah, the life.
Maybe it's just winter....too much, too long, too cold.
Maybe I just need a shot of something.