Crazy as a Loom

Thursday, February 28, 2019

Follow up.

On Monday, I had an appointment for my OMT (osteopathic manipulative treatment).   I've been getting them monthly for the last 4 years, and I swear they are the only thing that keeps my headache from taking over my life.

It was a great session, and truly, I drove home with my headache just about totally gone.

You can imagine how thrilled I was, relieved, grateful, hopeful.

A cold, sunshine filled day without a slamming headache is a beautiful day indeed.

But then the next morning, I woke up to find it had returned.   I wasn't too upset, because often after OMT, it takes a few days for things to settle down.  So I tried not to let it get to me.
Mornings are my quiet time...........sitting on the couch in my bathrobe, with a cuppa coffee, the gas stove warming the room, a cat, a dog.    I usually put heat on my neck, sit back, and wait for my head to find some place that's good.   It usually takes an hour, or two, but thankfully, it does get better.

I have had this old quilt, and I don't even remember where it came from.  It's been in my sewing cupboard for years, waiting for me to be inspired. 
I was here alone all day, and decided it was time.   I had a batting set aside for it, and an old sheet for backing.  I had already spent several evenings mending it.
It needed to be washed, but it was so thin, I didn't really dare to put it in the machine.

So I pinned it all together and started quilting it on my Bernina 770.

I wanted it loosely quilted, so it still felt light and fluffy, if that makes any sense.

Then, as I was sewing, I got the jagged light in my eye, again.

A voice in my head said, WTF.......are you kidding me????

So I took some Advil, and retreated to the couch, and put heat on my neck, and closed my eyes.

Back in my 40's, when the migraines started, a doctor told me I had "classic migraines", that was something special.  They were "classic" still makes me chuckle.

Over the years, I would have 2 or 3 or 4 a year.....that's all, and of course, I didn't have OTHER headaches, ever, so it was pretty doable.

Fast forward, I hit my head and started the headache marathon 8 years ago, never actually imagining that I would still have the migraines.....on TOP of the headache from hell.
Comical, if you think about it.

I have struggled to find whatever starts the migraine.....but really, there's not one thing.  I think it's a combination of things........and to tiptoe through life trying not to create that combination is a foolish waste of time.  It really doesn't work.

Anyhow, I sat on the couch, with my "aura", or jagged light....because I really can't see that well for about 20 minutes anyway.
I will admit it, I shed a few tears.
I felt a little sorry for myself.
I felt a tad victimized, picked on, hopeless.

It didn't last long.

That little voice in my head said, "Knock it off."
So I did.
I got up, kicked myself in the butt, and decided right then and there that this was not going to ruin my day, that I would not allow it.  I had a plan, I was sticking to it.

I sewed pretty much all day, taking breaks.......drinking tea, feeding the birds, doing chicken duty, having lunch.

In the end, I survived, and the quilt got done...........I washed it in the front loader, and all quilted, it did well.

It's like me..........a little frayed here and there, and old, and it's definitely seen better days,  but it's functional, and it's not done yet.

Not nearly.


Karen said...

I love the quilt, Hilary - it's a treasure as is! Love the colors, love the softness that can only come with some wear, love the sentiment too. Not nearly done yet - Amen. I asked a friend once what her secret was to still be driving horses and hiking the woods at the age of 80, etc. She said... Just Keep Moving! And she's still moving at almost 90.

Annsterw said...

That quilt is absolutely beautiful! I wish I had a sewing machine so badly!! Annster's Domain

justjill said...

Hang on in there. Most times I try for the same attitude.x

Joanne Noragon said...

I think it's exquisite. Do you have any ability to date it? I'd guess fifties. Thanks for rescuing it.

deodar said...

I truly hope you find some relief. Twenty some years ago I was in a car accident, couple of broken ribs on the left side but nothing major. Shortly thereafter the headaches started, beginning next to the left shoulder blade and running up the back of the neck, over the top, through the jaw. Usually starting about 4 AM - not a fun way to wake up. Sometimes easing off after I was up and moving around a bit, sometimes hanging on for a couple of days. I tried several types of chiropractic, acupuncture, massage, you name it. I finally broke down and went the drug route, prescription strength NSAID twice a day. Probably doing a number on my liver but hallelujah, while most of my left side is still a bit wonky the headaches have been gone for the last year. I truly hope you find a solution too.

Sojourner Design said...

What a story... an old quilt and your struggle with pain. You are an inspiration.

Barbara said...

Love the quilt!

Deb said...

That's a beautiful quilt, Hilary. And I love a 'light' quilt.
I have said this before but I am sorry you are still suffering with these headaches. I think you are an amazing woman how you deal with it. Spring is just around the corner...felt like it here today at +1C lol...and sunny. We take what we can get.
Love to all, Deb

C Reeder PhxAz said...

The rescue quilt is so soft and cuddle worthy. Your “light quilt”. I have hemaphlegic migraine headaches centered at my left side above my ear. Mind boggling how they stop you dead in your tracks. When a huge life adjustment happened they went away for two solid years. Fast forward to October 2018 suffered cardiac arrest. Got through it and lo and behold this week back comes that migraine. Full bore. Lights and all. I took midrib for years and it’s was a good preventative. Mine were mostly food and caffeine related triggers - as in zero caffeine allowed. Got some wonderful wonderful Christmas Tea to help me recover and now that I pay better attention it is caffeine full. So gotta get that outta here and then see what happens. I so understand...... my boxer, a quilt and cold rag over my head. That’s it.

Pat said...

I buy your attitude. Wasting time feeling sorry for yourself (give it 20 mnutes tops) then back at it !! When I am strong with myself, I like myself better !
Really like your quilt. I have a few myself that I wouldn't offer to anyone but I feel comforted for having made them.

Bovey Belle said...

What a lovely old quilt. I can almost feel how soft and loved it is. Glad that the migraine didn't get really bad and stop you quilting it. I bought a little VERY loved (to shreds on the edges!) Welsh quilt recently thinking, hmmm, that will take a while to sell, but someone came along, spotted it and just fell in love with it, just BECAUSE it was so soft and loved.

I was feeling a bit sorry for myself one day last week, but fortunately it didn't last long.

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