They just keep coming, don't they? And somehow, the more I am thinking things through, the less I have been inclined to blog.
I swear my brain got rebooted, and I am still trying to sort it all out.
After having only two serious headaches over 8 weeks in the SOUTH, I have had 5 days of serious headaches in 8 days. Hear me sigh?
I think it is safe to say that my head does not like WINTER in the frozen northeast.
It is one thing to decide to make changes in your life. We all do it.
But then there come those times, when change is not entirely a matter of choice. All those factors that you didn't ever have to take into consideration before, suddenly make change inevitable.
And you're standing there, looking totally confused, saying whiskeytangofoxtrot?
I have decided that most of my "issues" with my life right now are all related to the concept of "too much".
Too much snow.
Oh, yes, I know it will be gone. April is almost here. And I know that long, wintry winters are not my favorite thing.
Too much cold. My neck HATES the cold.
Warm weather will come, and I just have to figure out how to avoid this deep freeze in my life.
But that involves a lot of change that is just not that simple. It makes my head spin.
Too much stuff.
Everywhere I look....too. much. stuff. I want to go through every closet, every book shelf, every nook and cranny......I want to divest myself of everything that I do not need. I want to be minimalist.
The word "extraneous" keeps tripping through my brain
It seems like every negative in my life is the result of "too much".
When I jump on the scale.........too much food.
When I reconcile my bank account............too much money spent, too many bills.
When I feel anxious or indecisive..........too many choices.
When I feel overwhelmed.........too much to do.
It's the story of my life really. I have always felt this "never enough" monster nagging at me.
My history of poor choices in men..............again, "too much" baggage.
That song keeps playing in my mind......"Happy"
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do
I think I know what happiness is to me.
I think I know what I want to do.
And it doesn't involve "too much" of anything. It's simpler, it's uncomplicated.
It's almost Thoreau.
Now I just have to get there.