Crazy as a Loom

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Life goes on.

Bittersweet.  Being able to spend a couple of days with my new grand baby.
Free to do so because my mother is gone.

Ah, life.   So hard, so beautiful, all at once.  It's a wonder a body can take it sometimes.

I have somewhat been operating in a "limbo land".   Trying to adjust to the changes that have just occurred.   In some ways, I think it was easier that I had months to prepare, and in other ways, I wonder, because those months took their toll.
But I am moving forward, because that is what is best.   It is, in fact, the only way.

Soon I will have my mother's affairs all in order.  I still have to convince myself that she is really gone.   That may take a long, long time.

Then I will be moving on to "get my head straight".  Sorry, I couldn't resist THAT ONE.

In some ways, I am in a bit of disbelief that this is really my THIRD surgery on my freaking head in 14 months.   Seriously??  I wish there were another door, but the rest are nailed shut.  This is the one.

As always, I may be offline for a bit, but someone will post something.  Hopefully, they will post  that the surgery is done, it was a success, and that I am moving all extremities.  And cracking jokes.

Right now though, it seems that this little girl affirms all that is good and right with the world.
And I'm taking that to heart.

Meet Baby Dale.

"Miserable people focus on the things they hate about their life.
Happy people focus on the things they love about their life."

That does seem like  a no brainer, doesn't it?


Carol from MN said...

you are pointed in the right direction, have all the best sailing equipment, tools and knowledge, now just let the wind fill your sails.... it will happen and all will be okay.

TexWisGirl said...

i hope this surgery will be the last you'll need to 'fix' your headaches and return to peaceful existence.

Connie in Hartwood said...

What a ride you have been on! So much happening in such a short time. That new grandbaby ... that's where it all is ... the future. I think about you and I hope that you are doing well. It's up and down, I know. Here's to more ups than downs for a long, long time.

Lee said...

So glad you have this beautiful baby girl to hug and dream of. Sending my good thoughts and prayers your way!

Denise at Autumn Sky said...

I hope this means that the doctor has found something to keep you from growing too much bone.
Baby Dale is beautiful and looks like she has a wise soul. She is the perfect addition to your family at this moment.
Sending you my very best.

claudia said...

Just look at that precious, perfect child! She is the answer to it all. Peaceful, sweet, secure.
Oh please, give her some loving from me. Thank you!

MarthaVA said...

Baby Dale is so beautiful!
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, and sending healing thoughts.

Devon said...

Dale is beautifully perfect, perfectly beautiful.

Thinking of you and sending prayers your way for all the healing in your life.

JC said...

I am sorry that you have to have another surgery. I've had two this year and I know I don't want the next one.

I do hope this one fixes your headaches.

Your Granddaughter is adorable.

It takes a while to adjust to losing a Mother. Mine has been gone almost 20 years and I still have her coat hanging in the closet. Just like she did when she visited.


mray said...

Hilary you have shown courage, strength, and so much is amazing. Prayers for a quick recovery and no more headaches.

Unknown said...

Little Miss Dale knew exactly when to heal the hearts and bring joy to you all...

thotlady said...

So beautiful, baby Dale.

Rita said...

Dale is adorable and life affirming and spirit soaring! Sorry about your mom. I hope this surgery will work. Third time's the charm.

Gayle said...

Such a gift, Baby Dale. Your mother was a grand gift.

Ray Bradbury, in Dandelion Wine, wrote a piece called Goodbye Grandma. I used to read it to my 3rd/4th graders. It is in chapters 31-33. I still read it from time to time to be reminded of the great gifts of others in our lives that continue in so many ways.

Daryl said...

she is such a sweet baby ... hugs to you

Karen said...

Oh, such a beautiful sweet brand new soul. What a gift at just the right time...

...the timing, you know? makes you wonder...

Hilary said...

I just want to kiss the little soft spot on her sweet little head. She's just gorgeous.

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