Crazy as a Loom

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Day by day

Exhaustion has set in, and seems to hang on.
Moving, even 10 miles away, and getting organized at the studio, emptying the old house, and getting it ready to sell, well, these two tasks have been overwhelming at times.

But we are down to the wire with our previous home.  Empty, cleaned, for sale sign out front.  A few things left to do, but mostly ACCOMPLISHED.

At the studio, we are settling in.  DH, thankfully, seems to be making the transition well.
I, of course, feel like I have come home, finally.
From city living to  country living, where I have wanted to be, dreamed to be.  It just doesn't get any better.

I have a list of things to do, still some boxes to empty, chores that need addressing.
Part of the work load has involved shifting my weaving studio to the "old" part of the house, giving us room for living space.
Part of that was downsizing, from (what?) 16 looms, to 8.  The fiber sale, getting rid of a LOT of stuff, and another sale imminent.
Making my weaving life simpler, less stressful, less complicated, more what I envisioned in the first place.
"Be careful what you ask for."  When I started here, I wanted a peaceful, lovely place to weave, and create, and explore my vision.  But what I got was eventually a full time job.  People who haven't worked for themselves don't know, but to make money, you have to spend money, and you have to be 100% present, so that eventually, it can take over your life.  And sometimes it does.
I am being more careful now, because boundaries are necessary, mandatory, to keep the "business" in its place.
I don't want a crazy, fall into bed at the end of the day, all encompassing, career.

No.  Been there,  more than once.

I want to enjoy my "retirement" years, I want to weave what I want, and have a good time doing it.
It's true, that the closer you get to the finish line, wherever that may be, the more precious the journey.

Lois and I started what we hope will be a stack of 4'x6' rugs.
This is the first.


Taking it a day at a time, finding my way.

Isn't that what we all do?




9 comments:

MarthaVA said...

I admire you for doing what you're doing. Changing things up, moving, selling, slowing down. It's not as easy as it sounds. I'm really glad you, and the rest of your family, are settling in.
Enjoy life. It's never too late to do that.
Martha

ain't for city gals said...

I am on the same wave length as you...I am absolutely done with any kind of paid work. If we don't have enough money by now we will have to think of something else...living in my little vintage trailer would be fine by me.

Shuttle, Hook and Needle said...

Glad to hear your DH is adjusting and the rest of the family. I know about the exhaustion part since our process of downsizing and possible moving is just started. I am already overwhelmed. I had a studio downsizing sale and was very happy to let lots of yarn and tools go to new homes. Still haven't sold the Cranbrook even after a drastic reduction in price. Hopefully it will go soon. Every time something is sold, donated or given away both the house and me give a big sigh of relief!

Deb said...

I know that feeling of 'being home', Hilary. Yes, I do.
And I, too, feel relief to know that the retired-guy loves it here and doesn't seem to miss the old home at all. That's a shock to me. I hope every day it just gets better and better for you. A new chapter, for sure.

518Frenchgirl said...

Hi Hilary, Just read your post and although you may feel exhausted, you are inspiring, because you are reaching your goal. You will get the rest and recharge you desire. You are the proof to so many that you can downsize and simplify and be happier for it. I love the 4x6 rugs. Great size for anywhere. Have a good week.

thotlady said...

Very pretty rug.

Daryl said...

yup ... its the best way to remain sane

Gayle said...

All good wishes for the contented you and yours.

Maggie from Stillness at Cherith said...

That rug is so beautiful!

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