Crazy as a Loom

Sunday, September 15, 2013

This versus that.

This is one of the craziest, most intense, happiest, and still the saddest, most difficult, and most wonderful, times of my life.
How can that be?

Well, it just is.
My grandbaby, Dale, is soon to arrive.  My heart sings.  I get tearful, and so excited, I can barely stand it.

My mother is leaving us, slowly, but surely, and it breaks my heart.

My surgery is scheduled in a few weeks, at the same time too soon, and not soon enough.

Life is full of so many contradictions, it's hard work sometimes, to sort them out.

This morning, on the way to feed the cats at the studio, before I rushed back home, the contradictions were rampant.

I found myself smiling at a truck in front of me, the man talking to his dog who was sitting in the passenger seat, like a friend.  The man would lean towards the dog, and say something, the dog would lean into the man, as if he were listening intently.
It made my heart glad.  He didn't put his best friend in the back of the truck, to take his chances.  He put him in the front, WITH him.  I could tell that his dog was part of his life, and it made me so happy.

Then I get to the roundabout, where it should work effortlessly, like a dance, cars should glide through the circle, in a sweet slow motion.  But no, some jackass has to gun it through the circle, to get in front of someone he thinks he needs to be in front of.  In an instant, I experience the need to yank him out of his car, and slap him.
You see what I mean??
There are contradictions EVERYWHERE.

I feel that way most days, pulled this way, and that.   Happy, sad, strong, scared, together, clueless.

One thing I do is continue to stay busy.  It works for me.
More donuts, per request of youngest daughter.

 But can I just tell you that it is not good to have these on the kitchen counter.....not good at all.
Good thing that two of my daughters made off with a bunch of them.

 And I am getting ready to put 75 yards on the AVL.  That means that I need 40 spools with 900 yards on each.  That is quite a job in itself.  I think I have 10 left to wind.

I've been picking up free things by the side of the road.......tell me you could have resisted this???

My youngest daughter, the expectant one, said......"do you mean to tell me my daughter is going to get hurt on this thing?"
I said, " I doubt it, you didn't get hurt when you had one."
AND has protective plastic over the springs.  HA!

Roy, well, he is practicing for this next surgery....he is my stay at home nurse for that first couple of weeks when I am down for the count.
He is already SO GOOD AT THIS.

Yup, life is full of contradictions.  Good and bad. 
But in the end, I think that the positives rule.  I have to believe that.


TexWisGirl said...

sweet. :) sweet boy roy...

Anonymous said...

Love when Izzy lets me snuggle with her. Rowdy is not so much a snuggler. but Isabelle is... Love that! Problem is she's kind of boney so her elbows always poke me. LOL Life is full of ups and downs. It's nice to know that the donuts are helping to balance things out for you..

MarthaVA said...

Love the free rocking horse!
Love Sweet Boy Roy more tho.
I've been keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, and sending them to your mom, and to the doctor to fix this issue once and for all.

Karen said...

I certainly could not have passed up that pony. And you said it.. they are much safer now than when we were rubber coated springs! Imagine that.

Sending love your way, sorry for the pain of losing your mom, the pain of that darn HH, but the joys you always find along the way in this thing called life.

KarenInTheWoods said...

That Roy boy what dog!

Sometimes doing something like winding spools can keep the fingers busy and not have to think so much.

Hey.. if it's a crazy week for you, you can delay that shipment to me, no rush!

Gayle said...

You serve to remind us that we need to acknowledge every moment and not miss one! You give such inspiration.

Shine said...

Focusing on positive will only serve to help through any hard time...AND...doughnuts ALWAYS help too!! Blessings~~Shine

claudia said...

Thank you for sharing both sides of the contradictions.
I love the driver with the dog story. I do that with my dog too. She listens, it's good someone does!!! LOL.
Those donuts look delish. Hmmm, just what I don't need, but now I want some donuts, it's a good thing it is late.
My prayers are with you and your family always.

Anonymous said...

Roy is very good at being a couch nurse, what a sweet face your boy has.

Daryl said...

life is all about contrasts and contradictions .. and i want those donuts .. please

Susan said...

I can say, a doughnut makes everything better! I had one this morning because your photo made me hungry, XOXO

Hilary said...

I want to know about one glaring contradiction... those amazing donuts and your skinny hips. That's just not fair! ;)

Lovely post, my friend. I'm glad you saw the guy talking to his dog. That's a day-brightener for sure.

May life always stay on the positive side of the equation for you.

Vicky said...

I will just keep believing with you! Those donuts- oh I just can't get past them. Nor can I can get over the fact that you are facing down the passing of your mother, the birth of a grand baby and yet another surgery. My heart is so with you in all of this :)

Connie in Hartwood said...

Make it brown, and we have a rocking horse exactly like that one in our attic ... took the batteries out of the musical part because it made me nuts.

You and your daughter and your mother will be in my prayers.

Don't let my husband see the donuts. I don't think that sweet man has ever met a carbohydrate that he could turn down.

Cupcake Murphy said...

I think you're right---in the end, the positives tip the scale.

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