I had to talk turkey to this head of mine.
(it went something like this)
OK,like knock it off. Enough already. What the hell??
Life is too short, and here you are, spending every waking minute pounding and being miserable.
Wasting my time, and YOURS.
Look, it's been two years already. Two surgeries. A wicked long list of days that were barely manageable.
Aren't you tired of it???
How about this???
You settle down, and take a breath.
Maybe just have a melt down or two a day, NOT ALL DAY.
We can do this, me and you. I just know it.
I really think you should consider the alternative.
Remember the trip to Great Neck? The hospital? The operating room? Oh, those harsh lights, and then nothing, only to awaken to even more pain?
C'mon HEAD, work with me here. I'll try to be better to you. You try to be better to me. That's how great relationships work.
And to be honest, I can't do this without you.
Towels are done. Drawing is tomorrow evening. Maybe I will even get the results of my MRI tomorrow? Maybe it will be good news.
Good grief, sometimes I annoy myself with such optimism, but hey, what's the alternative?
Here are the colors I have for you to peruse, so if you WIN, you will be ready.
These are lavender and turquoise.
And the next warp is on the AVL, ready to rip.
And I am going to work around it. See if you can tell what it is.
And yes, I've cleaned my desk, thank you.
Yesterday and today have been a little easier. Maybe my head is listening? Or not. But I'm grateful for the break, whatever the reason. I'll take it. Who knows what tomorrow might bring.