Crazy as a Loom

Friday, March 8, 2013

Soup, towels, and news

My new favorite soup.  L and I agree, we could eat it for lunch every day.
You can make it in your slow cooker, but I made mine on the stove.

It's Cannellini Bean and Kale soup, and the recipe is HERE.
You are going to LOVE it.


I was inspired by Sharon over at In Stitches.
She has been a little obsessed by "turned taquete", and now I know WHY.  Her towels are lovely!!

O.M.G.  I love this.



And it's so easy.  Well, threading 480 threads through the heddles, and sleying the reed was a little time consuming, but the weaving is pure joy.  I'm weaving it on the new (to me) Schacht 36.





I have been convinced that the weather was at the root of my headaches post surgery.
Super sure.
Then today, just a while ago, my surgeon emailed me about the MRI that I had on February 22nd.
Can I just say I was not expecting what I read, not even close.
You know I try to keep you in the loop, right?  Cause I know you all worry, or at least a lot of you do.

Keeping it real, even if it isn't always pretty.  You'll have to be content with unrelated pictures of weaving.

My headache has been increasingly disturbing,  to the point where I said to myself recently: "Something's wrong with my head."
And unfortunately, I was right.
My doctor informed me that the bone morphogenic protein that was used to make certain that my cervical spine fused well, has gone a bit crazy and overgrown much more than they expected.
So now I have to have a CT scan to see what is happening with the overgrown bone, and what can be done about it.
So since I doubt that there is any magic wand that can be waved, nor is there any cure all potion, I think the method of "fixing" it is clear enough that I don't even have to say it.

Can I tell you,  I am very, very disappointed tonight.  I can't really even think very straight about it.
It's just too much to digest.
Maybe I'll just go have a good cry.  Then I will kick myself in the butt, and get over it.
I think.



41 comments:

rosek1870 said...

I am so sorry and know that I am praying that there is a fix and it is not to terrible. I wish he had called and not just sent an email. Reading it must have be so very upsetting. Praying for a good outcome.

On a brighter note your weaving is just beautiful!! I love the colors.

Hugs and Prayers,
Rose

Denise at Autumn Sky said...

*big sigh*
That is not the news you wanted to hear. Life's twists and turns can be tiresome when you just want normal. But it's true, this too shall pass.

Hartwood Roses said...

What a rollercoaster you have been riding, sweetheart. On the bright side, at least your pain has a cause that's been pinpointed ... even though it's not the news you wanted to hear. We are all pulling for you.

Hugs,
Connie

Deb said...

I'm surprised he emailed you, too. Would he not expect that you would have immediate questions needing answers? Well, taking a day at a time again,as I know you have been doing for months now, we will just pray that this issue gets taken care of quickly and that you get on the road to recovery as soon as possible. Damn! Sending hugs, Deb

Acorn to Oak said...

Sorry to hear the news. But, on the bright side...it's good that they're finding a reason behind your pain. And, hopefully, they will be able to correct it so you can finally say goodbye to all those darn headaches.

I LOVE your weaving project! It's gorgeous! That should be a nice distraction from your recent news. Happy weaving and try to have a good weekend. Give Roy lots of hugs...I know he'll have lots of love and comfort for you. Hugs.

Gayle said...

Oh, hugs and good healing thoughts coming your way. You are such a pragmatist that I know you have a modicum of satisfaction just KNOWING! You have dealt with so much but are being asked to continue for a bit longer. I think the remedy is on the horizon and no doubt just in time to enjoy your glorious summer. Hang in there, Babycakes! And...you are right...we DO worry about you.

Can hardly wait to make the soup, will get ingreds tonight. We have a blustery, rainy, windy, cold weekend.

Towel colors are gawjus!

Paula said...

So sorry for the upsetting news, you have been through more than your share of pain & bad news. Praying for you! And yes, the towels are verry purrrrty!

MarthaVA said...

Oh Hillary! Okay, you CAN handle this, yes, it's a setback. Yes, it sucks! I know it's not really want you wanted to hear. Lets face though, it's much better to know this,a nd be able to do something about it (even if that solution is not what you want it to be) than to think you have to suffer like you have been, possibly for the rest of your life.
Have a good cry. You deserve it. Then tell that doctor that the least he could do is pick up the freakin phone when he has news like this, and you want to talk immediately! That, or find another doctor.
((((Hugs)))) always,
Martha

Hilary said...

Oh my sweet friend. I was afraid of something like this.

I'm googling "bone morphogenic protein overgrowth." It seems to be rather common.

Well crap. I wish I could give you a hug and a shoulder for that good cry.

Get this taken care of. You'll be a new you.

Shuttle, Hook and Needle said...

I must say after looking up what bone morphogenic protein overgrowth was, I am really concerned for you.
I think a good cry is in order and then tell the doctor his bed side manner is totally lacking. He emailed it to you?! I can't believe it! I think that would make me want another doctor.
Well damn damn and double damn

Susan said...

I hate when I fear something and it comes true. I'm having a good cry for you and don't kick yourself because this is awful news. I hope you know my prayers are with you and this can be taken care of, XOXO

claudia said...

I immediately went to the recipe and printed it out. It looks delicious!
I love the colors of the towels you have on the loom right now. Beautiful.
I am so sorry about the news you got. Although I have been praying for good results for you everyday...I said an extra please, please, please, good news when I saw your title. I bam disappointed for you. Hopefully, the docs will come up with a great solution!!! Praying daily for you again...(((HUGS)))

Cait Throop said...

Damn.

Tyche's Minder said...

so very, very sorry.

Lona said...

Oh goodness gracious.

Country Gal said...

I wish there was a miracle pill you can take . I am so sorry to hear this but like others have said here at least you now know what's causing the headaches . I prey they can help you and all is a good outcome !

Diane Cayton-Hakey said...

One more time....then all will be well, I just know it.

Lydia La La said...

I'm trying to type through my tears for you. This not funny anymore and the doctor is a creep for not phoning you or for not even following you up with weekly calls or even weekly emails.
They think they are God. Chin up, Hilary and don't be brave. Just cry when you want to. And thank you for posting to tell us. XXOO

Lydia La La said...


I've just gone to Google and it looks like your surgeon stuffed up badly. You can sue him for using this on your cervical spine. Here's the link. It is banned for use on your cervical spine.

http://www.fda.gov/MedicalDevices/Safety/AlertsandNotices/PublicHealthNotifications/ucm062000.htm

Anonymous said...

I have not a high opinion of Drs. since doing medical transcription for 12 years. It is inexcusable that he emailed you this news instead of calling. All considering, even though this is not good news, it is NOT as bad as it can be. It is not incurable brain cancer or something like that. And hopefully they can make it better. You can't just live on with those bad headaches...You are in my thoughts and prayers... and thankyou for the wonderful soup recipe! Pat M. :-)

Anonymous said...

You are a brave girl,Hillary. Just another obstacle to overcome. You can do it. We pray for you,we believe in you, we love you.
Your Greek friend, Dimitria

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Diane said...

Sending you prayers for a satisfactory end to this issue. We know you certainly have had enough.

Thanks for the update--You have LOTS of friends that are here for you 24/7.

XXOO

messymimi said...

Yes, i get concerned, and yes, i will be praying.

Joanna said...
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Joanna said...

Oh, Hilary~ What a bugger. I've been checking the blog 2-3 times a day to see if the doctor had finally sparked (yes, most of us do worry. You are a friend.) We'll be here. If you feel like crying, go ahead. We'll virtually hand you tissues, the virtual kind that don't get all soggy. Better days ahead.

Melanie Hayes said...

Hilary, I do hope things get better. Thinking of you. Need to take a trip up and visit. Just love the colors of your new weaving, it is just beautiful. You take care, sending a hug for you and one to Lois :)

Karen said...

YOu know... I want to say... remember.. "This too, shall pass". But quite honestly I would then want to smack me if I were you. Here's hoping the procedure (I hate that word) to healing this issue is not a big deal at all.

that soup looks divine, thanks for sharing.



Joy said...

well, it looks as if the online support group has gathered...we will see you thru this!! I am sorry for you, but l am one to say let's kick butt and take names and move forward thru this so it gets done and over with and you have a lovely summer!! Let's DO this thing!!..but then that is just me....
LOVE those colors you are weaving...they are just beautiful!!

Take care.


KarenInTheWoods and Steveio said...

HUGS....



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ladyoftheloom said...

Oh dear. So sorry to hear this. Wonder if they used it in mine last Tuesday? Wishing you a quick answer from your Dr.
Alice

Kathy said...

It's easy for us to say Hang In There, but it's not us that is going through this. Know we care, and we love you. And we are praying for you. I hope the Drs. can find the right healing for your pain. Soon.

Anonymous said...

Oh my.

Please get another Doctor.

Have you heard of Ben Carson?
He is Director of Pediatric Neurosurgery at John Hopkins.

I don't know him but, I have read
a book he wrote called "Think Big"
He is extremely intelligent and loves people.

While he does pediatrics, in his book he talks of adult cases he has done.

I too suffer Brain troubles. I have yet to understand why. But,
after I read his book I know that
should I seek professional help he
will be the one I seek out. If
he can't take me on I will ask for
his personal recommendation of who I should see.

Peg Cherre said...

I'm SO sorry that this is the news! :-( On the other hand, at least there's an answer, a reason for your pain. Here's wishing you a relatively easy solution.

MrsB said...

I would certainly let doctor know - via email - how rude and uncaring he seems to be when giving you unsettling news IN AN EMAIL.

Time for second opinion. I understand your place where you had this done is first rate - maybe another doctor there.

I think you can lick this thing - it will take time and a better doctor.

grace lovelace said...

i love that you start out with a soup recipe... then the turned taquete weaving.. it is like summer winter weave ?
then your news ....some how you will find the answer to this .
love & light

Lorraine said...

May many more delicious soups, vibrant colored weaving episodes and bloggers words of encouragement help you through this difficult time. How disappointing in both the means and the message of your Doctor's email. It is what it is however, and you have only proven yourself to be a strong, resourceful woman who will take charge and move forward. But lean also on your family, and know "us bloggers" are all here 'holding your hand' too when and if the going gets rough. Blessings to you Hilary, for all the goodness that you are! Better days ahead!

Two Guys and a Loom said...

That just blows.....BIG TIME!!!! Hope that the fix is easier than you'd expect.

Daryl said...

well .. i am sorry to hear this but glad you now know .. your Canadian twin Hilary is right ... hugs for now and soon, hopefully in a not too invasive way this can/will be fixed ... xo

Shiralyn said...

Well, I think I would be so mad at getting that info in an email, but then, even in person or on the phone, I would still be furious. Not sure if I would let him do another surgery, but will be praying that the right doctor does your final surgery. I mean final suregery in a good way. This is no fun at all for such a vivacious person as yourself.

Cupcake Murphy said...

I wish this wasn't happening to you.

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