Politics, religion, current events, they leave me cold.
I have no tolerance. Nada. Zero. Zip.
I was thinking about it tonight, on my walk by the river with my boy Roy. I love the simple placing of one foot in front of the other.
The sound of water rushing over the dam. The breeze through the trees, the quiet, the peace.
I want an uneventful life. Simple, uncomplicated.
Like dessert tonight.
Blackberry crisp.
Doesn't get any simpler.
Maybe you think I shouldn't bury my head in the sand. But I am just so done with that kind of craziness.
I like to stick to my own particular brand of wacky, it is so much calmer.
Maybe it was 30 years of nursing, much of it in the Emergency Department of a community hospital, with lots of nights I prefer to forget about.
Or maybe it was 20 years of nursing in a maximum security prison, which I almost never, ever think about. I had a nightmare last month, in which I was passing meds down corridors lined with cells, and it went on and on and on.
Or maybe it was living in a household where alcohol ruled. And dysfunction was normal as can be.
No, I don't need any more distress.
I know that there is a whole bunch of insanity out there. But I can't change it. I don't fool myself that way.
I just try to live the best life I can.
Just give me a field with flowers.
A loom or two.
Some fabric.
And that'll do me.
Amen sister
ReplyDeleteThat's how I feel. I just enjoy my horses, my little donkey boys, my dogs and chickens. And this life I have today with my sweet man who loves me and the animals a lot. I don't want the stress and just try not to let it in.
ReplyDeleteYes, exactly.
ReplyDeleteAnd that is exactly why we all read your blog, we are of like minds. My husband is sure the world is coming to an end. I told him, HIS will be if he doesn't walk away from the TV and into the yard. That's where our world is, with our garden and each other.
ReplyDeleteJackie
I'm with you on the simpler the better.... I've often said that people that whine and complain so really need to have a catastrophe in their life, so that they can learn to appreciate today... I've been through a bunch of heartache and difficulty (not as extreme as your though)... and it really did make me appreciate the peaceful days all the more! Deep breath, smile, enjoy!
ReplyDeleteAmen is right. You've paid heavy dues, Hilary, and served others well and beyond. Leaving it all behind for a sane existence is the smartest thing you could do.
ReplyDeleteRight there with ya, sister! I have to tune it all out sometimes just to save my own sanity.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I think they need to be put in a public "Time Out" corner so they can think about what they are doing and who they work for!!! Did I really just say that?
ReplyDeleteWe all have to get on with it and stop changing the play rules to be most popular...
I get frustrated too...so a walk and gardening is way better than watching the TV antics.
Yep, I agree with you!
ReplyDeleteAmen!
ReplyDeleteI agree wholeheartedly!
ReplyDeleteYou're singing my tune...right now I'm at the end of my rope with anxiety/stress...turning towards the simple joys in life really helps...
ReplyDeleteWorking in ER has me overwrought sometimes...have never been able to harden my heart and keep a mental distance like I should to survive the stress...X ray is hard enough...bless you for all the years you were a nurse, has to be one of the hardest most undervalued jobs on the planet...
For me, more than anything, it's just my age. I worked for years, had hardly enough money to pay rent sometimes and now life is good and I just don't allow stress to come in. I shun it and no longer do I have to accept it in my life. I protect my husband from it as well since he has enough mental stress at work each day.
ReplyDeleteI read about your concussion and am so glad it turned out to be ONLY a concussion, although even that can be serious. So glad you are okay, Hillary. Take care these next few days.
Amen, sister!
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