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Monday, June 20, 2011

Eddie, my Eddie

I wasn't going to blog today, I didn't think that I could.
My heart feels like it is going to explode in my chest.
I don't know how else to explain it.

And suddenly, I am at a loss for words.
Me.
I am flailing.  Grieving for a friend that has come to mean so much over the last 13 years.

Last night, Eddie, my sweet, lovable, darling pit bull, loyal to a fault,  went out to take his last pee of the day, and somehow fell into the pool, and drowned.
We are stricken.  Sleepless. Crying, crushed.

We knew that he was very old.  We knew that it would soon be time.
But to have the end sneak up on you, and hit you up side of the head, well, it just seems so cruel.
Maybe tomorrow, or the next day, or the next, it will make sense.
I hope you all understand, but I really don't have anything else to say.


Good night, lovey lou lou.  Good night.


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56 comments:

  1. GayleJune 20, 2011 at 7:43 PM

    {{{{}}}} Hugs. I am just so very sad for you. We love our furry family soooo much.
    {{{{}}}}

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  2. A Brit in TennesseeJune 20, 2011 at 7:48 PM

    Ooh, my dear Hilary :(
    I am so sorry, words cannot eaze the pain I know.
    Eddie was loved, of that I'm sure he knew.
    {Hugs}
    Jo

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  3. KathyJune 20, 2011 at 7:54 PM

    Hilary, I am so sorry. No words are needed, as none can express the sorrow we feel when we lose a cherished pet. Just as I cannot express how sorry I am.

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  4. Cindie June 20, 2011 at 8:01 PM

    .....I cried reading your post, I'm feeling your pain, so hard to lose our beloved pets no matter how, due to accident, illness or old age.

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  5. Sojourner DesignJune 20, 2011 at 8:01 PM

    I'm sorry Hilary. This is such a loss, I know.

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  6. TexWisGirlJune 20, 2011 at 8:06 PM

    oh my God. i'm so, so very sorry for your loss.

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  7. LAJune 20, 2011 at 8:18 PM

    I deeply feel your loss....and no words will make it better right now. I'll be thinking of you and Eddie.

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  8. MarselJune 20, 2011 at 8:18 PM

    So, so sorry...

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  9. MareJune 20, 2011 at 8:23 PM

    oh my goodness....i am so sorry for your sudden loss. I wake every morning and look to see if my old friend Gipetto(19 years old) is still with me after the long night. No matter how it comes, it is so, so hard...My heart goes out to you...love, mare

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  10. JabberwarpyJune 20, 2011 at 8:26 PM

    I am here in Maine crying for you.

    I'm an atheist, except when it comes to pets. There simply must be a dog heaven. Eddie is up there, young again, chasing squirrels and napping in the sun, on the most comfortable sofa ever. And eating people food. And getting as muddy as he wants, without having to take a bath. I know he's up there giving you a good recommendation too.

    We are all with you right now. My dog is by my side and I'll give her an extra bit of love tonight for you.

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  11. jaimiebJune 20, 2011 at 8:37 PM

    Hilary, I am so sorry...my heart goes out to you.

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  12. Franny VJune 20, 2011 at 8:41 PM

    Hilary, I am so sorry. I'm typing with tears in my eyes as I, too, have a furry family. As Jabberwarpy said, Eddie's young and healthy again. They say that animals don't have souls. I believe that they have beautiful souls. How else could they give us such love? I'll give my fur babies extra love in Eddie's honor.

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  13. AnonymousJune 20, 2011 at 9:03 PM

    Hugs for you. They are such a part of our lives when they are here it is so sad to say goodbye.

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  14. Karen thisoldhouse2.comJune 20, 2011 at 9:08 PM

    No words I can think of that could take it away... I am so sorry, Hilary...

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  15. LonaJune 20, 2011 at 9:08 PM

    Oh dear! I'm so sorry for your loss!

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  16. sharonJune 20, 2011 at 9:20 PM

    Oh I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Eddie. He looked like a great companion to have around. May you always cherish the great memories you have of him.

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  17. TheresaJune 20, 2011 at 9:23 PM

    Oh Hilary, I know how hard it is and how much you loved Eddie. Big hugs
    and don't forget the absolutely WONDERFUL life you all shared.
    Theresa

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  18. DebJune 20, 2011 at 9:45 PM

    I have such a pain in my chest right now. I'm so sorry.

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  19. lindaJune 20, 2011 at 9:49 PM

    Hilary ~ my heart goes out to you. Eddie was a beloved old friend. So sorry for your loss.

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  20. AnonymousJune 20, 2011 at 10:04 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss! I know how much our animals can mean to us! I've been reading your blog for a long time but never have commented before. I hope that the good memories that you've had over the years will comfort you.

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  21. Country GirlJune 20, 2011 at 10:04 PM

    Oh, Hilary. What a cruel shock for you to bear. I'm so very sorry to hear this. {{{Hilary}}}

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  22. weaverpatJune 20, 2011 at 10:11 PM

    Dear Hilary,
    I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Eddie. Such a tragic thing to happen! Please know that my thoughts are with you. I certainly understand how heartbreaking it is to lose a loving companion of so many years.

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  23. AnonymousJune 20, 2011 at 10:23 PM

    I am so sorry for your sudden loss. My mom has a bull terrier, Ruth, who was born the day my dad died in a car accident 12 1/2 years ago. For all the bad press they get, the pit breeds are some of the sweetest dogs out there (with the right owners).

    Take car of yourself while you grieve.

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  24. NancyJune 20, 2011 at 10:35 PM

    What a shame! Losing a pet is always hard.
    Nancy

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  25. fiberdanceJune 20, 2011 at 10:44 PM

    I'm so sorry-I know the loss of dear pets and feel for you right now.

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  26. AnonymousJune 20, 2011 at 10:59 PM

    Dear Hilary, I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved pet. Vicki Rapanault

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  27. Susan June 20, 2011 at 11:15 PM

    There are no words that will help the pain but as one who lost a dear pet just months ago, take heart that in time the pain eases. Its replaced by memories; some bring tears and some smiles.

    Hugs, Susan

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  28. LindaJune 21, 2011 at 12:04 AM

    Hilary, I'm so sorry for your loss of Eddie. Sending a big hug your way.

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  29. SweetpeaJune 21, 2011 at 2:02 AM

    I'm glad you wrote, Hilary. It is good to speak of such things. Big pain needs to have a way out so that it can become less big.

    I'm so sorry you have lost your dear one....

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  30. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 2:24 AM

    :(

    I am so sorry for your loss of Eddie.

    Ela

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  31. Tina JJune 21, 2011 at 6:23 AM

    I Know you will miss him. He was greatly loved and I know that he loved you greatly as well.

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  32. Candy DuellJune 21, 2011 at 6:31 AM

    I am so sorry Hillary! HUGS!

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  33. Connie in HartwoodJune 21, 2011 at 7:16 AM

    Hilary, sweetheart, your pain comes through so clearly in your words ... we all feel it with you. I would give you a big hug if I could, and cry right along with you. Consider this your cyber-hug. I'm so, SO sorry.
    Connie

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  34. MarthaVAJune 21, 2011 at 7:59 AM

    Hillary, I'm sorry for your loss. The problem with taking animals into our lives is, most of them pass on before we are ever ready for them to. Many ((HUGS)) for you.
    Martha

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  35. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 8:19 AM

    Crying for you and for Eddie. This is so sad....

    I just don't have any other words...

    But I am thinking of you today and your heavy heart, Hillary. {{{{{HIllary}}}}}

    Love you, my friend.

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  36. HilaryJune 21, 2011 at 8:40 AM

    Oh I am SO so sorry, Hilary. I can't imagine how shocking and painful this is for you. I'm so sorry, my friend. Big hugs to you.

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  37. That Janie GirlJune 21, 2011 at 8:42 AM

    Ohhhh, Hilary. I am so sorry. The love of a dog, the love for a dog - unmatched by anything else.

    I'll be praying for peace and comfort for y'all. And that your good memories of your baby boy will overtake this bad one.

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  38. Judy June 21, 2011 at 8:46 AM

    Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss.

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  39. ladyoftheloomJune 21, 2011 at 9:03 AM

    I am so sorry HIlary and for whomever else loved Eddie.

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  40. ReenaJune 21, 2011 at 9:10 AM

    Oh Hillary ... there are no words. Just hugs and hugs and hugs.

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  41. Delighted HandsJune 21, 2011 at 9:31 AM

    We are crying with you....such grief and loss.

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  42. ~from my front porch in the mountains~June 21, 2011 at 9:50 AM

    I am bawling here, crying jag that won't stop.
    Oh, Hilary I am so very heartbroken for you.
    Please know I am sending you comfort and peace, and eddie was so, so lucky to have you.....
    xo, misha

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  43. claudia wJune 21, 2011 at 10:15 AM

    {{{{{HUGS}}}}}
    So sorry, I understand how hard this is.

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  44. TammyJune 21, 2011 at 11:41 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. Our pets are our family and bring us so much love and joy. It breaks my heart to hear that you baby is gone. Take care and hugs!!

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  45. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 12:51 PM

    Dear Hilary,
    I'm writing with tears in my eyes for YOU and your DH. Losing a beloved friend is so very hard.
    Hugs and hugs to you both.
    Lee Anna

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  46. BarbaraJune 21, 2011 at 1:06 PM

    What a heartbreaking blow. I've had my sweet friends taken from me unexpectedly like that. Came hear from Blue Ridge Gal to give you a hug.

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  47. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 1:16 PM

    Oh, Hillary! I am typing this with tears in my eyes...I send warm thoughts and hugs to you and yours. Your sweet friend has only crossed the Rainbow bridge, he will wait for you on the other side. Be content and peaceful Hillary, time will dull the pain - it won't take it away but it will get easier to bear. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  48. CindyJune 21, 2011 at 3:09 PM

    I am new to your blog and just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. It is hard to say good bye to a sweet friend. I am sure Eddie is playing joyfully with all our other dogs that have gone before us. Hugs to you.

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  49. BonnieJune 21, 2011 at 4:08 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I understand that heavy heart of losing your close friend. I recentaly lost my best friend. Time will help, but the lose is still there.

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  50. JoannaJune 21, 2011 at 4:35 PM

    Sorry, sorry~ Crying too. Bastard of a thing to happen.

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  51. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 5:48 PM

    So sorry to hear of the loss of you beloved Eddie.
    Debbie, Cobleskill

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  52. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 6:10 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved Eddie. I grieve for you.
    Kimmen

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  53. LindaJune 21, 2011 at 6:36 PM

    I am heart broken for you, its so hard to loose our loved ones no matter how or when. My thoughts are with you at this saddest of times

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  54. AnonymousJune 21, 2011 at 9:18 PM

    Hilary, Our Hilary, don't shortchange your grief. Share it, feel it, express it, we understand and love you! As the others have said, Eddie is in a much happier place. This is so heart wrenching, but someday you will only laugh at his antics and his memories, the tears will slow down and you will have excellent memories of Eddie. Praying for you and your DH too.

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  55. NancyJune 22, 2011 at 5:29 AM

    Visiting you from The Blue Ridge Gal's blog -- so, so sorry about your sweet Eddie.

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  56. (GBS) NewsFromTheHillJune 22, 2011 at 11:00 AM

    Oh how sorry I am that you are going through such an unexpected grief. I hope that the happy visions of his life can soon replace these final sad ones that are probably overwhelming you right now.
    Hugs....
    Grace

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