Finally, I am back.....really back. I had a total knee replacement on March 5th. I won't go into the details......and I won't us this forum to express my very strong feelings about it, but if anyone out there wants to hear more about my not so nice experience with it, I would be happy to answer any emails....especially if it is to help someone make the decision to have or not have the surgery....or to encourage someone who has already had it........
The recovery was much longer and harder than I thought. I was exhausted, in a lot of pain, and I hardly could bring myself to go to the studio, much less weave. Then, because I couldn't bend my knee, I had to go back to the hospital and have my knee manipulated under general anesthesia. l
Then, as luck would have it, my gallbladder decided to finally take a dive.....and I had my gallbladder out. Actually, it was a walk in the park compared to the knee surgery. But it was surgery, nonetheless.
So here I am, almost 4 months later, and I am feeling like my old self, at last. I am back at the studio, and weaving like crazy.
One thing that happened because of all this is that I had a lot of time to think. And it occurred to me, that I had let myself wander away from what I had originally planned would be my focus in the studio. I started out wanting to weave rag rugs. That was it. Nothing else. But somewhere along the way, I found myself stocking the studio with spinning fibers, and some yarn, and some gift items. Then I did different classes in fiber arts other than weaving. And I dedicated part of the house to retail. None of this, unfortunately, made me very happy.
When I started feeling better a few weeks ago, I knew that the first thing I wanted to do was change all that. I wanted to get rid of everything that wasn't weaving related. I don't want retail to run my life. I want to have a working studio, and I want to weave custom rugs, and rugs to sell on my web site, and at occasional shows. When I am there, I put the flag out, and if people want to come in and look around, and maybe buy rag rugs, that is fine. But all the rest of it, well, it just isn't for me.
It is incredible what a relief it is to finally realize that. Some of the roving and a spinning wheel left today......and hopefully in no time, it will all be gone, and I will have rearranged the entire studio to reflect what I want to do, and what I am about. My friend, Sheila, says that the universe is speaking to me, and you know what......I am listening.